This post is a simple expression of emotional and spiritual isolation.

I believe that much of what I do, devolves from avoidance and/or fear of pain.

I further believe that my perpetual appetite for obsessive behavior, which inevitably consumes my time and energy, is the result of my attempts to cover my shame.

I hide myself behind Spiritual Fig Leaves.

Proverbs 16

1THE PLANS of the mind and orderly thinking belong to man, but from the Lord comes the [wise] answer of the tongue.

2All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes, but the Lord weighs the spirits (the thoughts and intents of the heart).^(A)

3Roll your works upon the Lord [commit and trust them wholly to Him; He will cause your thoughts to become agreeable to His will, and] so shall your plans be established and succeed.

4The Lord has made everything [to accommodate itself and contribute] to its own end and His own purpose–even the wicked [are fitted for their role] for the day of calamity and evil.

5Everyone proud and arrogant in heart is disgusting, hateful, and exceedingly offensive to the Lord; be assured [I pledge it] they will not go unpunished.^(B)

6By mercy and love, truth and fidelity [to God and man--not by sacrificial offerings], iniquity is purged out of the heart, and by the reverent, worshipful fear of the Lord men depart from and avoid evil.

7When a man’s ways please the Lord, He makes even his enemies to be at peace with him.

8Better is a little with righteousness (uprightness in every area and relation and right standing with God) than great revenues with injustice.^(C)

9A man’s mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure.^(D)

10Divinely directed decisions are on the lips of the king; his mouth should not transgress in judgment.

11A just balance and scales are the Lord’s; all the weights of the bag are His work [established on His eternal principles].

12It is an abomination [to God and men] for kings to commit wickedness, for a throne is established and made secure by righteousness (moral and spiritual rectitude in every area and relation).

13Right and just lips are the delight of a king, and he loves him who speaks what is right.

14The wrath of a king is as messengers of death, but a wise man will pacify it.

15In the light of the king’s countenance is life, and his favor is as a cloud bringing the spring rain.

16How much better it is to get skillful and godly Wisdom than gold! And to get understanding is to be chosen rather than silver.^(E)

17The highway of the upright turns aside from evil; he who guards his way preserves his life.

18Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.

19Better it is to be of a humble spirit with the meek and poor than to divide the spoil with the proud.

20He who deals wisely and heeds [God's] word and counsel shall find good, and whoever leans on, trusts in, and is confident in the Lord–happy, blessed, and fortunate is he.

21The wise in heart are called prudent, understanding, and knowing, and winsome speech increases learning [in both speaker and listener].

22Understanding is a wellspring of life to those who have it, but to give instruction to fools is folly.

23The mind of the wise instructs his mouth, and adds learning and persuasiveness to his lips.

24Pleasant words are as a honeycomb, sweet to the mind and healing to the body.

25There is a way that seems right to a man and appears straight before him, but at the end of it is the way of death.

26The appetite of the laborer works for him, for [the need of] his mouth urges him on.

27A worthless man devises and digs up mischief, and in his lips there is as a scorching fire.

28A perverse man sows strife, and a whisperer separates close friends.^(F)

29The exceedingly grasping, covetous, and violent man entices his neighbor, leading him in a way that is not good.

30He who shuts his eyes to devise perverse things and who compresses his lips [as if in concealment] brings evil to pass.

31The hoary head is a crown of beauty and glory if it is found in the way of righteousness (moral and spiritual rectitude in every area and relation).^(G)

32He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty, he who rules his [own] spirit than he who takes a city.

33The lot is cast into the lap, but the decision is wholly of the Lord [even the events that seem accidental are really ordered by Him].

Cross references:

1. Proverbs 16:2 : I Sam 16:7; Heb 4:12
2. Proverbs 16:5 : Prov 8:13; 11:20-21
3. Proverbs 16:8 : Ps 37:16; Prov 15:16
4. Proverbs 16:9 : Ps 37:23; Prov 20:24; Jer 10:23
5. Proverbs 16:16 : Prov 8:10, 19
6. Proverbs 16:28 : Prov 17:9
7. Proverbs 16:31 : Prov 20:29

Luke 6 (Amplified version for emphasis)

Blessings and Woes

17And Jesus came down with them and took His stand on a level spot, with a great crowd of His disciples and a vast throng of people from all over Judea and Jerusalem and the seacoast of Tyre and Sidon, who came to listen to Him and to be cured of their diseases–

18Even those who were disturbed and troubled with unclean spirits, and they were being healed [also].

19And all the multitude were seeking to touch Him, for healing power was all the while going forth from Him and curing them all [^[d]saving them from severe illnesses or calamities].

20And solemnly lifting up His eyes on His disciples, He said: Blessed (happy–^[e]with life-joy and satisfaction in God’s favor and salvation, apart from your outward condition–and ^[f]to be envied) are you poor and ^[g]lowly and afflicted (destitute of wealth, influence, position, and honor), for the kingdom of God is yours!

21Blessed (happy–^[h]with life-joy and satisfaction in God’s favor and salvation, apart from your outward condition–and ^[i]to be envied) are you who hunger and seek with eager desire now, for you shall be filled and completely satisfied! Blessed (happy–^[j]with life-joy and satisfaction in God’s favor and salvation, apart from your outward condition–and ^[k]to be envied) are you who weep and sob now, for you shall laugh!

22Blessed (happy–^[l]with life-joy and satisfaction in God’s favor and salvation, apart from your outward condition–and ^[m]to be envied) are you when people despise (hate) you, and when they exclude and excommunicate you [as disreputable] and revile and denounce you and defame and cast out and spurn your name as evil (wicked) on account of the Son of Man.

23Rejoice and be glad at such a time and exult and leap for joy, for behold, your reward is rich and great and strong and intense and abundant in heaven; for even so their forefathers treated the prophets.

24But woe to (alas for) you who are rich (^[n]abounding in material resources), for you already are receiving your consolation (the solace and sense of strengthening and cheer that come from prosperity) and have taken and enjoyed your comfort in full [having nothing left to be awarded you].

25Woe to (alas for) you who are full now (completely filled, luxuriously gorged and satiated), for you shall hunger and suffer want! Woe to (alas for) you who laugh now, for you shall mourn and weep and wail!

26Woe to (alas for) you when everyone speaks fairly and handsomely of you and praises you, for even so their forefathers did to the false prophets.

Love for Enemies

27But I say to you who are listening now to Me: [^[o]in order to heed, make it a practice to] love your enemies, treat well (do good to, act nobly toward) those who detest you and pursue you with hatred,

28Invoke blessings upon and pray for the happiness of those who curse you, implore God’s blessing (favor) upon those who abuse you [who revile, reproach, disparage, and high-handedly misuse you].

29To the one who strikes you on the ^[p]jaw or cheek, offer the other ^[q]jaw or cheek also; and from him who takes away your outer garment, do not withhold your undergarment as well.

30Give away to everyone who begs of you [who is ^[r]in want of necessities], and of him who takes away from you your goods, do not demand or require them back again.

31And as you would like and desire that men would do to you, do exactly so to them.

32If you [merely] love those who love you, what ^[s]quality of credit and thanks is that to you? For even ^[t]the [very] sinners love their lovers (those who love them).

33And if you are kind and good and do favors to and benefit those who are kind and good and do favors to and benefit you, what ^[u]quality of credit and thanks is that to you? For even ^[v]the preeminently sinful do the same.

34And if you lend money ^[w]at interest to those from whom you hope to receive, what ^[x]quality of credit and thanks is that to you? Even notorious sinners lend money ^[y]at interest to sinners, so as to recover as much again.

35But love your enemies and be kind and do good [doing favors ^[z]so that someone derives benefit from them] and lend, expecting and hoping for nothing in return but ^[aa]considering nothing as lost and despairing of no one; and then your recompense (your reward) will be great (rich, strong, intense, and abundant), and you will be sons of the Most High, for He is kind and charitable and good to the ungrateful and the selfish and wicked.

36So be merciful (sympathetic, tender, responsive, and compassionate) even as your Father is [all these].

Judging Others

37Judge not [neither pronouncing judgment nor subjecting to censure], and you will not be judged; do not condemn and pronounce guilty, and you will not be condemned and pronounced guilty; acquit and forgive and ^[ab]release (give up resentment, let it drop), and you will be acquitted and forgiven and ^[ac]released.

38Give, and [gifts] will be given to you; good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over, will they pour ^[ad]into [the pouch formed by] the bosom [of your robe and used as a bag]. For with the measure you deal out [with the measure you use when you confer benefits on others], it will be measured back to you.

39He further told them ^[ae]a proverb: Can a blind [man] guide and direct a blind [man]? Will they not both stumble into a ditch or a ^[af]hole in the ground?

40A pupil is not superior to his teacher, but everyone [when he is] completely trained (readjusted, restored, set to rights, and perfected) will be like his teacher.

41Why do you see the speck that is in your brother’s eye but do not notice or consider the beam [of timber] that is in your own eye?

42Or how can you say to your brother, Brother, allow me to take out the speck that is in your eye, when you yourself do not see the beam that is in your own eye? You actor (pretender, hypocrite)! First take the beam out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take out the speck that is in your brother’s eye.

A Tree and Its Fruit

43For there is no good (healthy) tree that bears decayed (worthless, stale) fruit, nor on the other hand does a decayed (worthless, sickly) tree bear good fruit.

44For each tree is known and identified by its own fruit; for figs are not gathered from thornbushes, nor is a cluster of grapes picked from a bramblebush.

45The upright (honorable, intrinsically good) man out of the good treasure [stored] in his heart produces what is upright (honorable and intrinsically good), and the evil man out of the evil storehouse brings forth that which is depraved (wicked and intrinsically evil); for out of the abundance (overflow) of the heart his mouth speaks.

The Wise and Foolish Builders

46Why do you call Me, Lord, Lord, and do not [practice] what I tell you?

47For everyone who comes to Me and listens to My words [in order to heed their teaching] and does them, I will show you what he is like:

48He is like a man building a house, who dug and went down deep and laid a foundation upon the rock; and when a flood arose, the torrent broke against that house and could not shake or move it, because it had been securely built or ^[ag]founded on a rock.

49But he who merely hears and does not practice doing My words is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation, against which the torrent burst, and immediately it collapsed and fell, and the breaking and ruin of that house was great.

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S.S. Says,

These words are some of the most powerful and paradigm changing words that Jesus ever spoke. In one sermon he turned the World, the system of domination and revenge and the value systems associated with it upside down. In Christian circles today we hear a lot about the Ten Commandments and the fight to hang them on our walls. We hear a lot of condemnation of them that do not adhere or accept our own particular brands of belief. We have too often shunned the even-the-enemy loving, grace filled Jesus of the gospels and clung to the image of Christ the avenger from the book of Revelation. Instead of only scrapping to hang the Ten Commandments in our public places, would we not, could we not better serve Jesus and our World by living as Jesus lived- speaking as he spoke- loving as he loved instead of shoveling dirt on those we perceive as our enemies? I acknowledge that there is a time to fight- to stand up for what is right. There is a right and wrong way to do that however. My question is why is no-one pushing to hang the Beatitudes in the public places? Another question… wouldn’t living as Christ like disciples and servants… living by humble example be better than hanging plaques on the walls?

When Jesus asks in Luke 6:46, “Why do you call Me, Lord, Lord, and do not [practice] what I tell you?”-what is your answer?

Too many that wear the name “Christian” today are not true disciples of Christ.

Mark and remember this from Luke 6:49:

“But he who merely hears and does not practice doing My words is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation, against which the torrent burst, and immediately it collapsed and fell, and the breaking and ruin of that house was great.”

Selah!

Footnotes:

1. Luke 6:9 Hermann Cremer, Biblico-Theological Lexicon.
2. Luke 6:9 John Wycliffe, The Wycliffe Bible.
3. Luke 6:10 Some manuscripts add this phrase.
4. Luke 6:19 Marvin Vincent, Word Studies.
5. Luke 6:20 Hermann Cremer, Biblico-Theological Lexicon.
6. Luke 6:20 Alexander Souter, Pocket Lexicon.
7. Luke 6:20 Joseph Thayer, A Greek-English Lexicon.
8. Luke 6:21 Hermann Cremer, Biblico-Theological Lexicon.
9. Luke 6:21 Alexander Souter, Pocket Lexicon.
10. Luke 6:21 Hermann Cremer, Biblico-Theological Lexicon.
11. Luke 6:21 Alexander Souter, Pocket Lexicon.
12. Luke 6:22 Hermann Cremer, Biblico-Theological Lexicon.
13. Luke 6:22 Alexander Souter, Pocket Lexicon.
14. Luke 6:24 Joseph Thayer, A Greek-English Lexicon.
15. Luke 6:27 Marvin Vincent, Word Studies.
16. Luke 6:29 Joseph Thayer, A Greek-English Lexicon.
17. Luke 6:29 Joseph Thayer, A Greek-English Lexicon.
18. Luke 6:30 Joseph Thayer, A Greek-English Lexicon.
19. Luke 6:32 Marvin Vincent, Word Studies.
20. Luke 6:32 William Tyndale, The Tyndale Bible.
21. Luke 6:33 Marvin Vincent, Word Studies.
22. Luke 6:33 Joseph Thayer, A Greek-English Lexicon.
23. Luke 6:34 Marvin Vincent, Word Studies.
24. Luke 6:34 Marvin Vincent, Word Studies.
25. Luke 6:34 Marvin Vincent, Word Studies.
26. Luke 6:35 Hermann Cremer, Biblico-Theological Lexicon.
27. Luke 6:35 Marvin Vincent, Word Studies.
28. Luke 6:37 Literal translation.
29. Luke 6:37 Literal meaning.
30. Luke 6:38 Marvin Vincent, Word Studies.
31. Luke 6:39 G. Abbott-Smith, Manual Greek Lexicon.
32. Luke 6:39 Alexander Souter, Pocket Lexicon.
33. Luke 6:48 Some manuscripts so read.

Cross references:

1. Luke 6:1 : Deut 23:25
2. Luke 6:2 : Exod 20:10; 23:12; Deut 5:14
3. Luke 6:4 : Lev 24:9

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Here, Mark Driscoll describes precisely the reason why I post some of the music and other items that I do on this blog.

Lyrics:

I don’t care about the state of my hair
I got something out of nothing
That just wasn’t there
And your kiss kiss kiss
Is never gonna blow me away
Dreams of escape keep me awake
I’m never gonna get out or make it away
I’m a stone dead tripper
Dying in a fantasy
Like a cracked open sky
it helps you to die
Don’t split it scrape it
You’re screaming automatic pain
Your’re too young kid you’re gonna get hit
Looks like your never gonna make it
Off the government list
I don’t mind about the state of my mind
But you know it’s good for nothing
And I left you behind
It’s a sick sick city
But it’s never gonna make me insane
If you’re talking for real
Then go cut a deal
You’re facing up to living out
The way that you feel
And you shake shake shake
‘Cause you know you’ll never make it away
Well I guess that’s why I’ve always
Got the blues

Wayfaring Stranger

This is another bluegrass spiritual I’d love to hear at church. The song is centuries old:

lyrics:

I am a poor wayfaring stranger
Travelling through this world alone
There is no sickness, toil nor danger
In that fair land to which I go

I’m going home
To see my mother
I’m going home
No more to roam
I am just going over Jordan
I am just going over home

I know dark clouds will hover o’er me,
I know my pathway is rough and steep
But golden fields lie right before me
Where weary eyes no more will weep
I’m going home to see my father
I’m going home no more to roam
I am just going over Jordan
I am just going over home

I’ll soon be free from every trial
This form will rest beneath the sod
I’ll drop the cross of self-denial
and enter in that home with God
I’m going home to see my savior
I’m going home no more to roam
I am just going over Jordan
I am just going over home

We turn away to face the cold, enduring chill
As the day begs the night for mercy love
The sun so bright it leaves no shadows
Only scars
Carved into stone
On the face of earth
The moon is up and over One Tree Hill
We see the sun go down in your eyes

You run like a river, on to the sea
You run like a river runs to the sea

And in the world a heart of darkness
A fire zone
Where poets speak their heart
Then bleed for it
Jara sang - his song a weapon
In the hands of one
whose blood still cries
From the ground

He runs like a river runs to the sea
He runs like a river to the sea

I don’t believe in painted roses
Or bleeding hearts
While bullets rape the night of the merciful
I’ll see you again
When the stars fall from the sky
And the moon has turned red
Over One Tree Hill

We run like a river
Runs to the sea
We run like a river to the sea
And when it’s raining
Raining hard
That’s when the rain will
Break the heart

Raining…raining in your heart
Raining into your heart
Raining…raining into your heart
Raining, raining…raining
Raining into your heart
Raining…
Raining your heart into the sea

Oh great ocean
Oh great sea
Run to the ocean
Run to the sea

My school mates and I used to jam to this rusty old tune back in the day. In my 43rd year this song makes more sense than ever.

Heaven and Hell- Black Sabbath
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Sing me a song, youre a singer
Do me no wrong, youre a bringer of evil
The devil is never a maker
The less that you give, youre a taker
So its on and on and on, its heaven and hell

The lover of life’s not a sinner
The ending is just a beginning
The closer you get to the meaning
The sooner you’ll know that youre dreaming
So its on and on and on, oh its on and on and on
It goes on and on and on, heaven and hell
I can tell, fool, fool!

Well if it seems to be real, its illusion
For every moment of truth, theres confusion and lies
Love can be seen as the answer, but nobody bleeds for the dancer
And its on and on, on and on and on….

They say that life’s a carousel
Spinning fast, youve got to ride it well
The world is full of kings and queens
Who blind your eyes and steal your dreams
Its heaven and hell
And they’ll tell you black is really white
The moon is just the sun at night
And when you walk in golden halls
You get to keep the gold that falls
Its heaven and hell, oh no!
Fool, fool!
Youve got to bleed for the dancer!
Fool, fool!
Look for the answer!
Fool, fool, fool!
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I’ll look for a vid or audio file to post here with the lyrics later.

I have flashbacks of lost loves when I hear this one.

Lyrics:

In a room above a busy street
The echoes of a life
The fragments and the accidents
Separated by incidents

We Listen to the walls
We share the same spaces
Repeated in the corridors
Performing the same movements

Story to story
Building to building
Street to street
We pass each other

Story to story
Building to building
Street to street
We pass each other

We listen to the walls
We share the same spaces
Repeated in the corridors
Performing the same movements

The nature of your tragedy is chained around your neck
Do you lead or are you led
Are you sure that you don’t care
There are reasons here to give your life
And follow in your way
The passion lives to keep the faith
Though all are different all are great
Climbing as we fall
We dare to hold on to our faith
And steal away our destiny
To catch ourselves with quiet grace

Story to story
Building to building
Street to street
We pass each other on the stairs

Listened to by the walls
We share the same spaces
Repeated in the corridors
Performing the same movements

Story to story
Building to building
Street to street
We pass each other on the stairs

This one makes the hair stand up all over my body. Electrifying.

Lyrics:

What goes around comes around
Feel it breathin’ down heavy on you
You made that bed you’re layin’ on
Deeds that you have done
Now you can’t undo

You’ve got bones in your closet
You’ve got ghosts in your town
Ain’t no doubt, dear,
They’re gonna come out
They’re waiting for the sun to go down
You can’t hide from your demons
Feel them all lurking around
You’re runnin’ scared cause
You know they’re out there
They’re waiting for the sun to go down

It’s a long and hard row to hoe
When seeds that you sow
Grow by the wicked moon
Be sure your sins will find you out
The past will hunt you down
And return to tell on you

You’ve got bones in your closet
You’ve got ghosts in your town
Ain’t no doubt, dear,
They’re gonna come out
They’re waiting for the sun to go down
You can’t hide from your demons
Feel them all lurking around
You’re runnin’ scared cause
You know they’re out there
They’re waiting for the sun to go down

Oh, it stands to reason
Every dog will have his day
Your day is leaving
Better hold on tight
Here comes the night

You’ve got bones in your closet
You’ve got ghosts in your town
Ain’t no doubt, dear,
They’re gonna come out
They’re waiting for the sun to go down
(Waitin’ for the sun to go down)
You can’t hide from your demons
Feel them all lurking around
(They’ve got ya runnin’)
You’re runnin’ scared cause
You know they’re out there
They’re waiting for the sun to go down

They’re waiting for the sun to go down
Down
What goes around comes around
Feel it breathin’ down heavy on you